TODAY WE CELEBRATE MOTHERS. Like most holidays it might be overblown by Hallmark, but the fact that there is a day where we all pause and love on our moms, and take the time to give them thanks for giving us life, makes it pretty special and oh so sweet.
I love all the pictures and sweet words that many have been sharing about how much their mommies and or babies mean to them on this Mother’s Day weekend. It seriously makes my heart smile so BIG. It makes me reflect on how much I love and appreciate my mom and also the mommas that have taught me so much and have been there for me as I am now a first time mommy myself.
Becoming a mom really does change who you are and how you see the world. And it does make you look at your relationship with your own mother differently too. I know people say that, but you really don’t understand it fully until you become one. I remember I used to roll my eyes when my parents would say stuff like that to me. But it’s so true.
I just want to share a few thoughts mainly for myself. So that I can look at this and reflect on it one day. But also I write this reflection to express my love and gratitude to all the wonderful mommas out there, especially the ones that have been so close and dear to me. I feel since becoming a mommy I’ve received so much love and support from other moms. It’s been awesome. It’s neat how we find each other too. I feel like I reconnected or connected for the first time with all these amazing women simply by the very reason and solidarity of motherhood.
It has been the most challenging journey as much as it is so extraordinarily amazing and rewarding. There are times where you feel so exhausted and so alone (especially if you are a stay at home mommy) and you think, where are my friends at? The ones that I always imagined would be by my side from start to finish. But then I look at those who are there and I am filled with gratitude and so much joy and fill silly for feeling alone.
And with that said, we all show how special it is to be a mother in our own way. I like to share as much as I can and to be there as a support to other mommies but completely understand how some mommies are more private and not as vocal about what they think or how they feel about motherhood. I think a lot of that has to do with our personalities too, but I think we can all agree it’s the best job on this planet. 🙂
Being a new mom you literally get taken over by the spirit of motherhood. It’s so powerful. The love between your child is insane. It makes you literally insane. I am so in love with Penelope. I would do anything for that baby. It’s pretty obvious how obsessed I am with her. But I really can’t help it. I mean she’s my first and always will be. I am still blown away by the fact that I made a life and that she is mine to keep.
I am in awe of anything and everything that she does. My husband and I look at her everyday and are blown away by the littlest things. Just today we were talking about how amazing it has been to watch her develop. It goes by so fast. It’s a miracle that life even exist. It’s been so fascinating to watch our baby grow. From the first day we brought her home from the hospital at 6 lbs 12 oz, a tiny itty bitty infant, to the silly goofy six month old, chunky thighs for days, baby girl that she has become.
My first official Mother’s Day as a momma with a baby in her arms and it feels so special. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking (as I always do) about this very important role I now play. I’ve shared how I’ve wanted to be a momma for as long as I can remember, and now that I am, I find myself in awe of it and overwhelmed with gratitude. She’s only been here for a little over half a year, but I can’t seem to remember what life was before her.
I love walking through our house and staring at the many signs that we are no longer a husband and wife team, but a family. A real family. So neat! There are baby books here, tiny socks there and soft and squishy toys all around. There are signs in our home everywhere I look that a baby now lives here. I LOVE peeking into her nursery as I pass through the house, especially if daddy is in there with her playing or reading with her. I allow myself to take in fully that this is my life. This is it, the moments that I have longed for. This right here is what life is about.
I know there are many mommas out there that are just as overwhelmed with gratitude to have this beautiful opportunity to call ourselves a momma. I send my love to them all and wish their hearts to be as full as mine feels today. Being a mother is one of the things that has made me the most real. Feel the most intensely in my life. And has made me know the purest form of unconditional love.
And on this Mother’s Day, I take this time to stop and appreciate what this all means even though at times it seems way over my head. This is year one and oh boy I know that I have much to learn and yet to see and do. How exciting and wonderful it has been so far.